Despite spending my entire day productively plopped in the library, I feel unprepared for what’s ahead, and more importantly… uneasy.
I try my best to plan ahead, and yet my insecurities can still get the best of me. Usually the only thing that stops that anxiety is when I busy myself. But if I’m ahead of the curve, and if things still don’t work out, who’s to blame?
I want to sit in my classes, and listen and learn. And I want to sit on the Quad, or chill in Thornden Park and just read. But these aren’t really options.
Maybe next semester?
I need a close friend here.